I thought I loved him, but he had to break my heart for me to know what true love really is.

My blog looks like it's being neglected. lolz
Have quite a few things to update but i'm really lazy to blog nowadays. Guess i'll just do it another time. hehe

Out of boredem, i was doing some of the facebook quizzes and i find some of them total bullshit. But then again, there was SOME that were very
true.
This is one of them.



Whats your biggest weakness?

You are often loved because of your outgoing and fun personality, and you like to give hugs and flirt, but underneath of it all you are lacking heart. You find it hard to love others through all the walls you've built around your heart from being hurt so much throughout life, but you want to love, you desperately want that fun, romance that you see in others, but you don't know if you can have it in your current circumstances. You want stability, but at the same time you need change. You go from one extreme to another and often feel overwhelmed when you can't figure out something. You think about your life often and how you can improve your character. You find it hard to settle, but you really want to. You just feel like you need to find that balance, that heart that you've been missing for so long. You need to love through the pain, but it's so hard. But the walls need to crumble for you to truly be YOU..


True no? lol.

Say the word and i'll stay here in your arms forever.

How was your weekend? Mine was the usual. lol.


Went to watch Aliens in the attic a few days back. A show i would definitly recomend if you're looking to have a good laugh. A pretty nice show overall.





Friday this week wasnt spent at the usual Mardi. Instead, we went to this new club called El Habanero. It's just one of those small clubs that people wud usually go there to chill. We thought it was gonna be boring at 1st cuz the crowd wasnt really there. But the placed filled up ard 12 and yeah, we started having fun. The music was nice too.
There were these few guys though that got really touchy. They didnt even get the message after avoiding them a few times. Geez, guys. lol



Yday was a Saturday night and guess what i decided to do? lolz, no, i didnt stay at home. But i didnt hit the clubs either. Zheng wei called asking whether i wanted to go for this event called traffic light? at Mcircle i think.. but after thinking about it, i decided to go for a movie instead. lolz.

I know what u must be thinking by now. The way i'm watching movies this month, there shouldnt be anymore movies to watch right? hahaha. Yeah, we're practically running out of movies to watch already! There's only one show left that we havent watched! lol.


Watched this show called "tracing shadow". It was a stupid show. but honestly despite my sister and Sarah disliking the movie. I didnt. There was some really funny parts. And guess what? You get to see LOADS of "Jackie Chan's, Jet Li's, Andy Lau's and even JAY CHOU'S" Hahaha! Yup, you heard me right. So all you Jay fans. go watch the movie and u'll understand what i mean. lol






Hmmm, i realise my post are now always filled with words and no pictures! Getting picz from other people takes a damn long time. And by the time i get them, i dont even feel like blogging bout that particular thing anymore! ish. I need my own camera! *hint hint* lolz



It's about time i start on my assignments before everything piles up. Hmmm, i guess thats what i'll do right now.


XoXo.

It's funny how you still can make me feel this way after all this while..

Just when you think that you're over him, he smiles at you and makes you realise that you're not even close.

Doesn't it just get on your nerves when all you do is be nice to someone and they take you for granted?

When your efforts aren's returned?

Well, sure you didnt expect anything in return when you're helping that someone. But being taken advantage of is just too much.

Lolz, take a wild guess on who i'm talking about though u'll never guess.

But then again, i didnt as well.

Dont bother asking me who though cause i wont bother answering you.

So i just got back from coll and I found out smth.
Apprently, someone said this about sarah, manda and i..



that we always freeload ppl.
That we're cheap.
That last time in mos apparently got a line of guys waiting outside the toilet to make out with us.



Ahah. Yes. SHE said all this thinking that it would not get back to us. Well guess what? It did. Maybe the whole reason SHE creates rumours like this is cause of the lack of confidence SHE has? Hmmm, i wouldnt know cause she actually thought that there was A LINE OF GUYS WAITING OUTSIDE THE TOILET TO MAKE OUT WITH US!
hahahaha!
fucking joke!



Well, i mean thanks for thinking that we're so capable of making so many guys wait just to make out with us. but yeah, we're NOTHING LIKE YOU.
Dont make assumptions about us just because you're insecure about yourself.

Just because i never say anything doenst mean it's okay.
Go on and continue acting like that and one day, everyone will realise how you really are.
You might be reading this thinking it's you.
And maybe it is.
But then again, you might be worng.

So anyways, I went for another movie on Sunday. Watched land of the lost which wasnt that great but we had a good laugh. 2 words to describe this movie. Hilariously lame! Lol.

Started on this post while i was in the library during my 2 hour break on Tuesday before comprehensive class. Argh, why did i have to fail my econs?

zzZzzZzz.


But now it's already Thursday! lolz. Was damn lazy to finish up the post. ahah.


Watched a movie again yday which was Overheard.Lol, i know what you must be thinking. Again?! ahah. But yeah, since there was nothing to do, we filled our time with a movie. I find this movie a waste of time. It was just boring. Was looking forward to watch this movie but it was such a let down.

Anyways, let me share with you some of Sam's master piece that was done in class..
Gosh, i hope none of the lecturers reads my blog! hehe.

This isnt one of the lecturer though. It's one of our classmates. lol





Where to tonight? Well, i've decided to stay home and be a good gurl. So yeah, no going out for me tonight.




XoXo.

Look at yourself in the mirror before you start bitching about others.

Remember the time we used to laugh about how silly we were? I miss those times..

Arghhhhhhhhh!!!

It's almost 1 in the morning and i'm wide awake thanks to a creature that got me on my toes. Knn, and i got coll tmr morning! ish.


I got home from Pasar Malam and walked into my room as usual. When i was about to put my bag on my bed, i saw smth moving on my bed. I jumped, sceamed and ran out of my room. I thought i screamed pretty loudly but no one came out. Guess my mum was asleep since it was almost 12 anyways.


Trust me, words cant describe how i felt at that moment! You have no idea how much i hate cockroaches! Argh! Those tiny lil brown things gets on my nerves all the time!


I tried to kill it. I really did.
but but, it got away.
It was really slow and yet i couldnt kill it.
Gosh! I feel damn useless.


And now? I'm downstairs in the living room cause I dare not sleep in my room. lol. After my attempt to kill the cockroach (which i failed miserablily at) I quickly took my shower, changed, sprayed the whole room with shelltox and came downstairs.


Guess i'll be sleeping on the couch tonight. lolz


XoXo.

How i wish you were by my side at that very moment.

I've finally realised that the reason you stopped loving me was not about anything else but only because of how much i've changed and what i've become

I had a really really long post written on what i did over the weekend. It was saved in my drafts and i WAS SUPPOSED to upload picz and post it. But after reading it again, i got lazy. So that explain's this shortened version. lol


Friday

- Went to watch GI Joe. It's the 1st action movie that i enjoy in a long long time. Trust me, it's MUCH MUCH BETTER THAN TRANSFORMERS! lol.



- Dispite saying that i didnt want to go Mardi that night, i went. (the crowd there though is dying down.)


Saturday

- Shopping at Mid Valley then Bangsar with the girls. (Only got some lingerie, a dress and a top)

- Dropped by opium at night or Andrea's friend's b'day then went home to start on my assignment. (yeah, i know right? Went home early on a Saturday night just to get my assignment done! lolz)



One ofAndrea's friend. Sorry, i cant remember ur name.



Sunday

- Went to MacD to get some studying done and start on my assignment.



Today?
Went to coll as usual but i came home early cause i wasnt feeling well.


Ahah, looks like i'm done updating. And trust me, this is the much shorten version. I was so lazy to get the pictures out from the camera that i only decided to upload the picz that i've been tagged so far. lolz.


Assignments are stacking up!!
Argh!
and did i mention? Coll finishes late tmr due to Comprehensive class! Ish.


XoXo.

Sometimes you need to open your eyes. If it's not working then why are you still holding on?

Just got off the phone with Sarah and guess what?? She doenst have class till the 17th of August cause apprently someone from taylors Pj got infected with H1N1.

I've watched 2 movies this week. The proposal on Monday with the Boyfriend. Then Ghost of my Girlfriend's Past with the clasmates and Manda on Thursday. This time, it wasnt only Sim and Aaron. Mun Yee and Dawn came along.

Awesome show. Had a good laugh while watching this show.

Not as nice as The proposal. It was kinda a bore at some parts though there were secnes that are funny.



It was Ou on Wednesday with Sarah, Manda, Andrea and the sister for some shopping. Ended up only getting a dress and a top.


Headed to Zouk yday for Ah Gan's B'day. It was kinda boring at 1st mainly cause i hardly know anyone there. Then it got better When us gurlz headed to the dance floor to dance.

After dancing though, i felt unwell. I only drank like 2 cups of liquor but ended up puking a while after dancing =.="


After a while, the boyfriend decided to leave cause i wasnt feeling that good though he was having fun. Aihh, made me feel damn bad. But it made me feel loved. hehe.



It's a Friday today. Where to? lol. Dont think i'll be heading to Mardi tonight cause i'm getting bored of that place already. Lolz. Looks like i'm getting bored of most clubs.
Tommorow though, we're heading to MidValley to do more shopping then Drinking at Kota. Apprently they have an empty Banglow there where we can drink all night long. lol

Argh, on a totally random note, i really shud start on my assignments and start studying if i'm ever gonna catch up. Sigh, just kill me now. lolz


Owhkayy, i think thats all for now.


XoXo.

I've never told anyone this.. But i'm scared of falling apart.

Currently having break now and since the guys decided to play pool, i decided to update a lil making use of club 9's internet connection. lol.

Havent really been doing much since it's classes everyday. But yday, after class Sarah, Sim, Cedric and I decided to drop by pyramid to do a lil shopping. Got a dress, a skirt and some new make up. I dont even know why i bother getting anymore make up. I've got plenty and i dont even use most of them. lol

Followed Js to Bangsar after that cause he needed to fetch his sister and didnt know the way. Had dinner there as well. Finally had the banana leaf rice that i was craving for. Though it wasnt nice compared to the one in Jalan Gasing. Argh. Want to go there so badly but i dont know the way. Ish.

Having another hour of class after break then will be heading to ou to do a lil more shopping. The classmates though wants to watch a movie. So maybe we'll do both depending on the time.

Will update again when i get the chance.

XoXo.

I cried today not because i miss you

or even wanted you.

But because i finally realized..

That i'm gonna be okayy without you.