No more smoking...?

Eunice and Jeslyn just left.. They just finish getting ready for "the big night out".. Unfortunately, i'm only able to go out at 10 *sadness*.. Can't wait for the night out.. haven't been to club in.. weeks..! All i want is to have fun tonight.. Hopefully there ain't any drama that can ruin the night tonight!

Hmmm... letz see... i'm gonna giv up smoking... not that i really started, but yeah.. It's bad for health *typical excuse*... But i just don't think there's a use smoking... whats the point? (no offence to all ya'll smokers..) Well, i'll stop after tonight.. So i shall smoke as much as i want tonight..?

Anyways, i'm off to shower and... pamper myself...? Will update ya'll on how the night went... Later!

u said u're trying.. But r u trying hard enuf...?

Have been single for... 2 days! I love my friends for always being there for me!

Jeslyn ===> Always calling to check on me

Eunice ===> Comin over to my house to keep me company

Leland ===> Brought us out to lunch yesterday!


They've been keeping me busy so that i don't simply think.. and i absolutely LOVE them for it! Anyway, went to ou yesterday.. Leland picked Eunice and i up from my house then we went to pick Silas and were off to ou.. Had a great laugh with then at Jusco and at Burger King...

Leland was playing a fool at Jusco.. Touching all the food.. pressing here and there.. It was hillarious! Then at Burger King, they started singin.. As in REALLY REALLY loudly.. Leland's singing was kinda "over the top" (if ya know wat i mean).. Eunice and i were non stop laughing!!

Then, Leland and Silas left to fetch some friends.. Eunice and i went to OSC.. where Siau Lung came after that... Wanted to go to Yippe Cup, but he kept makin excuses.. In the end i found out y.. Jessica Ting was there along with Deric... So yeah.. She walked off straight away when she saw me.. After walkin a while more at 6 my sis came to pick me up... And we went home along with Eunice..

At night, Deric called me and asked whether i backstabed him and Jessica.. And duh, since i didn't, i said no.. cuz apprently, she called him and said that i backstabed them.. But the truth is, i didn't even talk abt Deric.. and i don't have to backstabb Jess.. After what she did to me, i don't have to, i can FRONTSTAB her (if i want to).. If i ask my frenz not to trust a person thats not trustable, i don't consider that backstabbing.. It's just facts!

Anyway Deric wants a 2nd chance.. he wants me to forgive him and he says that he'll wait.. He says he doesn't like Jessica at all.. But then he doesn't act as if he wants a 2nd chance... He doesn't make the effort to try and gain my trust back... The things he does makes me more and more suspicious.. If he doesn't care and doesn't make any effort, isn't it best that i try to move on?

If you want my LOVE, 1st u hav to win my trust!

Just came back from tuition.. At 1st i didn't wan to go into detail about what happened today.. but then again, y hide the embarrassment for the ppl who don't really care(or cares a lot since she asked me not to tell any1?)


Well... there's this gurl named Jessica Ting.. I knew her during the merdeka celebration we had at Mardigras.. Over the one month period, we've gotten closer and closer (ppl hu've been reading this blog wud know).. But this morning, i found out that she MADE OUT yeah, i repeat MADE OUT with Deric Lee the day before (thats CURRENTLY my ex).. I was sitting at Wong Kok with her waitin for some frenz when i found out.. How? The messages he sent her.. So well, apprently, SHE was the one who kissed him 1st.. Some fren eh?


After FINALLY getting Deric to admit what happened, i went back to Wong Kok, paid for the drink and left with my friends ( i asked her to look for Deric).. After chilling a while, we went to OSC to foos.. Yeah, thats how i tried to get it all away from my mind..

Siau Lung came to OSC.. and when i told him everything, i was in tears.. crying my hearts out (it was damn embarrassing! Serioiusly, hadn't done that b4).. I guess he kinda didn't know what to do... cuz he was just sitting there and trying to help me wipe my tears (come to think of it, it's kinda funny)...

Anyway, Jessica came up to trying to explain.. But apparently her explaining was.. i know how u feel.. Alex(her ex) did the same thing to me... everyone deserves a second chance.. When i said Deric has had more than 1 chance, she said she was talkin bout herself... Guess she doesn't actually care bout him at all..


After a while, my frenz and i went to eat.. wasn't really feeling well then.. almost puked in the rubbish bin beside the escalator.. But was okay after a while.. Went into OSC where Jeslyn FINALLY came.. God! i LOVE her, she's been there for me through a lot of things.. Then Eunice came ( i LOVE her too!! Glad that we repaired the friendship.. but thats another story..) So anyway.. hang in OSC till bout 4 smth (Deric happily foos-ing- guess the relationship ain't important eh?)

A friend sent me home.. then.. cried again when i told my sis.. again when i called siau lung and jeslyn, again when i listen to song and again just when i felt like it (god! i've cried more today then 5years added together)..

Asked my sis to go OSC to play snooker with me.. she said okay (guess it was cuz she know hoe sad i was).. went there and foos.. then she and sm went to play snooker.. was an hour late for tuition...

Anyway.. she keeps on saying we don't understand her.. Seriously, whats there to understand?! U guys made out. Is there anything else i shud understand? And she's now blaming us for not understanding her?! Seriously, who can be so stuck up in their own world that they can be that... Argh... dun hav a word for her..


Btw.. since everything's out... y not i just tell all the facts out eh...? lets c... Leland broke up wit her but she told ppl that she broke up with Leland.. Same goes for Alex.. She told me she nvr liked Leland.. but still tried it out with him (thank god he broke up with her)..

Ppl deserves a 2nd chance.. i know.. But does she? I really don't know.. Do i really want a friend that betrayed me like this? will we ever hang out again? Well, guess what? I've too many GUD frenz and i mean really really GUD frenz out there to waste time on one that doesn't treasure the friendship..

As for Deric.. shud i forgive him? He said he loved me... Is it true? what is love? How does some1 prove it? How long will he love me? how long will he wait? Guess only time will tell..

Anyway... I just wanted to say thanks to all the ppl that helped me with today!! LOVE ya guys!

*Jeslyn*
Some1 hu's always there for me when i need her! Mwaah!!

*Eunice*
Being frenz with her lits up my world (cute, funny & definatly pretty)

*Siau Lung*
There when i need him.. When he knows i'm in trouble, he comes just to give comfort!

*Victor*
A gud clown! (dun angry yea) Wat i mean by that is he makes my Laugh when i am down!

*Leland*
Gives gud advice (cuz he's been trough a lot).. And always havin my back!

*my dear sis*
A pain sometimes.. but when she knows i'm down, she brings me out! mwaah!

What is LOVE?

Went to ou after studying today.. Found out smth that broke my heart.. My "ex" boyfriend cheated on me with some1 i considered my friend(seriously).. I tot she was some1 that had my back. some1 that wud nvr betray me.. Guess i was wrong!

What hurt me the most was that i TRUSTED my bf.. and resulted in this (note to all gurlz, trust your instinct).. For the 1st time in years, i cried (really really cried).. All the things i tot were real was just a lie.. all the things he said was bullshit and the friend i tot was sincere was a scam...

He tried to explain.. saying he didn't like her at all.. not one bit.. He said he LOVE me (love? what is love??).. If he did love me, wud this really had happen?

I found out who my real friends are.. found out who stood by me.. who cares for me...

Fun Fun and.. More fun!

Last week, on friday was the last day of PMR.. Gud for those PMR students eh..? That Morning, i went to mac D at 7.30 to study.. till about 10, where shu fung, Hui kwan and Raine came and meet up with me.. went to skool and met Deric, Eunice and Jie yi there.. We walked yp to Bukit Utama for a swim where Jessica came later on..

Random Picture at the beginning

Gurlz juz loveEE to pozE

The Whole group

7 SeeXxyY Gurlz!!




Nicole, Jess, Wendy, Shu Fung, Raine & Eunice

After swimming, we got ready and went to ou..

Me and Hui Kwan===> after make up-ing"

We reached ou and it was packed with form 3's... As in seriously packed.. Went in OSC and played pool with Jessica then all of us (Jess, Hui Kwan, Eunice, Raine, Siau Lung, Silas, Leland and I) went to Yippee Cup for a drink..

Raine And I

Goofing around with silas's specz in Yippee Cup

After a while, at about 4 smth, Deric borrowed Leland's car and sent Eunice and I home..
That night, i went to Seramban, and came back the next day..


Today after school, i was suprised to see Deric and Jessica waiting in the canteen for me.. We went to ou together... And at about 3.30, i went home..

A new Month..

Nth much to blog about.. So here are some Swimming picZ on the 1st of Oct...

Hui Kwan-April-Nicole

Shu Fung =)

*Manja baby*

Nicole & April

Love her =)

Looking gud =p

The two faced bitch

Well, there's this gurl in my skool, a tauke.. only form 2 but apparently she thinks she's "all that" being a cheerleader and all.. hmmm.. sometimes she gets on my nerves.. but i didn't have a prob with her at 1st...


About two weeks ago, she was in the library along with Js, sitting at the same table so Deric & i went there to sit as well ( just to make things clear, it was cuz js was there. NOT her).. As usual, she was being a typical wannabe cheerleader making LOADS of noise (doesn't really matter).. Blah blah blah..Then *slap* she hit me on the arm (i guess it was meant to be a soft bitchy type of hit) but it was quite "pedih" plus me being in one of my not so gud moods, i started scolding her (is was out of a sudden! ain't usually like that.. i guess..?)

I think i said smth like ===> Ma hai, who r u? simply whack ppl! wan to kena slap ar? ( i know, like tai ka che rite...? I'm not usually like this.. HONEST! =p)

Well, as guess, she was shocked, then she apologized.. Just then the bell rang and we walked off.. but she was still trying to make a joke and pretend as if nth happen.. well, I ignored her... Doesn't really matter wat happen in the library.. When i reached home..

*Beep beep*

Got a text msg from none other then miss "i'm a cheerleader, i'm so fab".. it said:-

Nicole!! I'm so sorry about wat happen.. Didn't know you'd be angry (it said smth like this larr.. but then it also said..) it wasn't that hard wert.. y u want to angry.. sorry la.. (WTF rite?)


Who says sorry like that?! Totally a half ass-ed sorry! So i decided to ignore it.. but then just a few days ago, i found out smth else.. She msg-ed Deric, Iz * Js abt this matter...


To Deric & Iz it went smth like ===> Eh, Nicole angry at me le.. What to do.. blah blah blah ( u get wat type of msg i mean)


To Js it went a totally diff way ===> Eh, Nicole angry at me.. Who does she think she is.. blah blah blah..

And these messages were sent on the same day ( i think).. Yea, talked abt being 2 faced eh? Guess if the person who's involved reads this, u'll know that i'm talkin abt u! Yeah well, this is what i think of u!