It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside.

Gosh! I havent been updating. lolz.

Owhkayy, so where shall i start?
Hmmm, Last week during the 1 week of Raya break, we somehow couldnt stop partying.
Uh-huh. Even if we werent clubbing every single night, it was at least alternate nights.

Monday evening started off with a wonderful dinner with the family at Jake's. Gosh, i miss the food there. The steak and lamb is soOooOoo good.
After filling our stomachs, we headed home and i got ready. The night was spent at Quarttro with Kai Meng, his bro and some of their other friends.
It isnt what i called a great night, but it was okayy.
I guess the night was ruined due to some drama that happened.


The awesome lamb that i had. Urgh, i miss it already.

@ Quarttro


Ky.Manda.Nic



It was freezing cold in the winter room.

Uh-huh, look at Kai Meng's face and u'll know how cold it was. haha




Cant really remember what i did on Tuesday. And on Wednesday, we celebrated Manda and Chang Ee's b'day. I know everyone is dying to see drunk pictures of her posted up. But yeah, thats gotta wait till the next post.
I promise to do a proper post bout her b'day. hehehe.


So, remember how i told you i went to MOS 2 weeks ago and the music was fucking nice? Yeah, we decided to go on Thursday and yup, the music has gotten much much better than before.
Sarah, Manda and i went together with some friends. Urgh, it has been such a long time since we party together. I miss it. lol.
Didnt get to take any picz though cause baby wanted to use the camera that night.


Had free invites to black eye peas concert in Sunway on Friday but since baby was not working that day, i decided to keep him company.. Damn nice righ? Hahaha.
Even when i got a text from the sista saying some friends had vip passes to party with them at Zouk, I still didnt go.
In the end, we just went drinking at some place in Mayang and foos-ed in Rileys.


And since i didnt go to Zouk that night, baby allowed me to go on Saturday when Ezra called.
The sista, Manda and I went along with Ezra's friends. The place was packed with people and the songs were good. The night ended with a lil twist though. lol




Ezra keapt on telling people that alcohol wasnt a prob for him. haha. In the end? he was damn tipsy. haha

Hyped up.


Not ready hai maii.






Hmmm, i guess that's all for now. It wayyy pass my bedtime cause i got an early class tmr.
Promise to update soon!


XoXo.

Thorugh all the laughter and all the smiles...

Behind all the smiles and all the laughter,
I'm just this ordinary girl with nothing special.
See me through your eyes and i might be vibrant and full of colours.
But deep down inside i'm just empty and hollow.


You'd never know the real me cause everything is hidden.
All kept away from the eyes of others.
I wont let you see how weak i am..
I'll only let you see the happiness i have.


That is why you've only seen my laughter and not my tears,
Through all the laughter there's a million more tears.
But that's something you'll never see.
Cause that's the part of me that's locked away..


I've slowly started to realize that this is never going to end.
It's something i'm going to have to accept.
I live in a world of denial.
And maybe that's something that's gotten me depressed.



XoXo.

I dont want to go on knowing i mean absolutely nothing to you..

Promise me, thats all I want,
just a promise that you will never forget me,
tellme I changed you somehow,
let me know that I had an impact on your life,
promise me that you will always remember me,
losing you was hard enough,
but I dont want to go on knowing that I mean absolutely nothing to you.

I Surrender to You, I Give my Heart, But You All You Do Is Tear Me Apart.

Gosh i'm having holidays now and yet i can't seem to update regularly. Urgh, i have so much to update. lol.


So, where do i start? hmmm.. After a freaking long time, i went to MOS last Thursday and guess what? The music has totally changed. I remember saying how much i started to loath MOS cause the music sucked but now? It's damn on. lol. Even when there was no alcohol, you'd feel like dancing.
Urgh. i feel like goin there again next Thurs.
I didnt bring my camera that day so yeah, didnt take any pictures.


Went down to Ac on Friday with Manda and met up with Kuan Ong and his friend in the evening and during the night, I dropped by laundry cause it was Yuin's belated b'day celebration. After getting "my job done" Manda and i left to meet up with the sista and Andrea. Keapt my promise and followed my sista out that night. lol



The b'day gurl.



Muaxx.

Bought her a lil b'day pressie.



Which lead her on the way to thiss...

Yup, Nicely done. haha.



Saturday, I followed baby to Coco for his friend's b'day. It wasnt exactly boring but i didnt exactly have fun either cause i didnt know any of his friends. but i guess it was okayy..? lol.



Manda and the sista came a lil while but they left early.












And finally, Saturday was spent in Mardi cause it was Mandy's birthday. Andrea snapped loads of picz using my cam and that explain the collages. lol.



Baby wasnt ready. lol



Baby and Me

Nick and Andrea

Mun and Albee

Peace! haha.

lol, our cam-whoring picz.

Nope, they werent drunk yet. haha











I find this pic damn cute. lol.



Yday we dropped by El-habenaro (i think thats how u spell it?) cause Nick was spinning there that night. Had the famous Beef noodels at Jalan Alor and dropped by Aloha as well. Lol. Busy busy.


Finally got everything uploaded. I've been sitting infront of the lappie for such a long time my eyes hurts.


XoXo.